It’s been a long time since i’ve done a little life update on the blog. And i think with that comes a lot of reading updates for me, because all i’ve done recently is read basically. It’s not been a great few months, as you might be able to tell from the blog recently and past posts, but here’s why.
First of all, some of you may have noticed the lack of posts on the blog in the last few months, and the more sporadic uploads. I suffer from anxiety, mainly social and MDD (Manic Depressive Disorder), which means i don’t know if i’m going to be feeling up or down and cannot control it. It leaves me feeling incredibly unproductive at times. And with my life being amped up recently, everything seems to have hit at once.
I’ve especially been struggling with the blog and the inability to think of new posts, let alone actually sit down and write them. I’ve definitely not had any energy to do that. Whenever i get the urge to sit down and write a post, once i actually sit with my laptop in front of me, that urge goes and i sit wallowing in my inability to actually write anything. I had bursts of enthusiasm with it (mainly if we have an interview post to write up or something similar), but most of all i just can’t be bothered.
With this, i thought that my reading productivity would go down too. That luckily hasn’t happened. I’ve become obsessed with reading and i want to spend all my time with my thoughts in characters lives (i think to avoid my own, but let’s not get too deep, this is just a blog post after all). I’ve been really loving getting right in to a book and being attached to all the characters. This might just be because i’ve read some really great books recently, but all the same it’s been a great feeling to not have this part of my life go a little downhill too.
Because of this i’ve read quite a lot recently, and have a lot to talk about, but it’s just not being transformed in to paper. Posts such as wrap-ups and monthly book hauls i’m definitely lacking in the effort to complete. I just can’t be bothered to write down all the books i’ve bought in a month just for a post. As you might have noticed i didn’t upload one for April this year.
I do have a lot of exciting things coming up that i’m looking forward to writing up and posting. A lot of great interviews and reviews of books i adore. Also with Christmas and Blogmas it’s keeping my reading speed quite good. Obviously i’m trying to read as much to get my reading target higher too.
Does anyone else get more in to reading when their mental health is quite bad? I have a feeling it’s not just me, but i also feel a little frustrated with this can’t be the only productive thing i’m doing at the moment. Also the more i’m reading the less time i actually have for blogging or any other kind of work. It’s not the balance i was hoping for.
I find it really strange having a mental illness when being a reader and a blogger, although it’s the same with mental illness and other hobbies, not wanting to do them and getting stressed, i find reading so relaxing but it turns in to a chore and then becomes something i dread doing.
Any tips on how to balance myself anymore or to help my blog productivity would be useful – leave some in the comments or send me a message on Twitter!